Communicating with the world outside

"What do other people think of me while they speak with me? Why do they act like they do when i am around them? Why are they able to hold their mask on? What is with their cool composure?They are so distant from me. WHY IS THIS DAMN WORLD SO COMPLICATED?" Those are the questions that have come to me today during my speech with my classmate. When i think of it, we can never guess what is other human thinking about us. I do not even understand why are we saying words if we cannot understand the meaning that is behind them. No it is more like we cannot SEE the meaning behind words. Reading face expressions can be helpful sometimes, but it is not enough to understand the thought that was sent along with the words. What is the meaning in communicating with each other when we can only recieve part of the information. Recieving part of information is the same as recieving false information, because a lot of false conclusions are made and a lot of misunderstandings occure. Well i will give you people an easy example. As i told you before i had those thoughts when i spoke with my classmate today. She spoke with me without changing her facial expression. While speaking with her i tried to figure out how did our speech affect her. Was i being a nuisance to her? Or maybe she enjoyed speaking with me? Maybe she was wearing a mask and in reality she was laughing at me from inside? I cannot even say if the words she said were the words that she wanted to say or maybe those words were lies.
Why are people dishonest so often? It is enough that we cannot compeletely understand each other. We are complicating things even more. Now we have to doubt words. Now we need to do two things at the same time. We need to recieve the message behind(that is hard enough) and we need to doubt those words. Sadly people are always doing things the hard way. Trying to protect themselves by wearing masks full of lies they distant themselves from others. When we distant ourselves from others our situation becomes less secure(Because the closer people are to each other the safer it gets, since people support eachother). Thus it appears to be meaningless to do that.
If people were honest, there would less wars, less conflicts and more positive things. I mean we have a lot of problems without lying and fighting amongst ourselves. There are those natural cotostrophes.
Communicating with person is really hard, but it is really helpful not to think about it. It is like Sophokles said:"'For ignorance provides the happiest life." If we are honest and persistant enough our message will surely reach its destination. So i can conclude that we should not think about what other people think, we should be honest and positive and then we will live a happy life.
Happy ending YAAAY!

Why did i start my blog?

Well, i wanted to try blogging for a long time already, got inspired by my classmate. Today i was told that this thing will sufficiently increase my grammar, so i guess it was the last piece of it. I couldn't endure this temptation anymore. Soon i will have the exams and in order to get high marks i need to train myself. This blog will be written in two languages: Estonian and English! I will write about those deep thoughts of mine that i get to think during the day. I hope it will be fun. I hope it will clear my mind. I hope....bla bla bla.

And here we have the Estonian version of it.

Ma tahtsin juba pikemat aega proovida blogi kirjutada, minu klassivend oli minu inspiratsiooniks. Täna mulle öeldi, et blogi kirjutamine võib aidata mulle enne eksamit, nii et ma ei suutnud enam enda tahtmisega võidelda. Varsti mul on eksamid ja selleks et saada head hinnet ma pean ennast treenima. See blog hakkab olema kirjutatud kahes keele: eesti ja inglise keeles. Ma hakkan kirjutama nendest rasketest mõtetest, mida ma mõtlen päeval. Ma loodan, et see hakkab olema põnev ja kasulik. Ma loodan, et see teeb mu pead selgemaks. Ma loodan....blablabla